no words

On Friday, the most horrific crime was committed against innocent children and faculty at a Connecticut elementary school. This hits hard to home for anyone who has kids, or anyone who is a decent human being. I know first hand what it's like work and be in an elementary school as I am/was a 2nd grade  (and other grades) teacher for 6 years. I am taking time off to raise my precious baby girl Hadley but once a teacher, always a teacher. We did many lock down drills over the course of the year. I would always go the extra mile and talk to them about what if they were stuck in the hallway (like if they went to the bathroom) or if we were on the playground. It was all business when we were in the actual drill but you always knew that it wasn't real and the likelihood of it being real didn't seem possible. We would all line up against the cabinets and wall by the door. It was always a tight squeeze but they did such a great job. Our principal would come around and check to be sure our doors were locked and that they couldn't see us if they peaked in the door window. I also remember when we had a couple classes out on a playground during one drill and they weren't sure what to do. Later after finding out, they were supposed to all lay as flat as they could on the ground.

Over the years security has been tightened due to many reasons. We had two entrances that were open at all times only and had to wear our ID badges. We required guests to always have a visitor's pass and sign in at the office. The school in CT had more security than this and it still occurred. My view on this is if somebody wants to do something, I don't think anything could have kept him out. Those teachers and staff acted with great heroism just like I know my fellow teachers would have. It's a sad tragedy and I just hope that we can live in a better place.

That being said, I think I'll keep Hadley in a bubble in my home forever. I will leave you with a picture of her because I love her so much.